Thursday, October 11, 2012

千斤小姐

别误会
我华语没有生锈
没有写错
我就是要写千斤小姐
为何呢

最近啊
越来越肥了
秤上的数字越来越高了
一斤两斤地上升
还不变成
千斤小姐吗
:3

好懊恼啊
得知自己有严重胃病后
只有增加没有减少
肚子一出警告声
我就
天啊
又要吃东西了

不吃
胃痛死
肥死
加上踏入二字头的人生了
新层代谢下降
不运动
又吃那么多
有不变肥婆的可能吗

自我安慰地对朋友说
肥到很开心
因为
就算我肥
还有人爱我

朋友也说
那是幸福的象征啊
><

拜托
谁要那幸福啊
昨晚的我
真的不开心啊
穿了几套衣服
都不满意
看到
一个肥婆在镜子前面
心灵受创
是时候减肥了

我顶不顺这样的自己
走路都感觉有肥肉在跳动
坐着也感觉到被自己肥油压着
很难过
受不了
不想看
那大大的肚子

我努力
减肥
向往
苗条身段
:)


Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Hachiko

Do u all watch about this before??
Last moral class
our dear Sir showed us this movie
a very well known true story between a dog with the owner
very touching
and 
we all cried
LOL
tissues passing all round the class

guess what
I think of ah dog of course
he just went missing last 2 months
maybe he died
maybe he lost his way
maybe he found a better owner
but whatever is it
ah dog
I MISS U

I think ah dog understand me well
thats why he choose to escape from my vision when he knows he is about to die
do u remember we make a promise
u have to wait till i come back only can die
but u choose to run away
u dowan see me cry so cham izit
I KNEW IT

I miss ah dog always after he went missing
But I dint tell anyone
and
I dint cry
I know he dun like see me crying
whenever he see I cry
He will just keep quiet and sit beside me

When I was child
I used to play around with ah dog at pasar
I will tell ah dog my problems sometimes
I will scold him and throw things at him when I in bad mood
He seems like understand my feelings
He wont fight back
I regretted after while 

when he old and
he become aggressive
I talk to him nicely
so that he will take medication and all
and 
he followed my instruction

He is a dog
But somehow I treat him as my little brother
As my family members
lol
he is actually much older than I m

AH DOG
WHEREVER U ARE
I WILL REMEMBER YOU
NEVER FORGOT THE ONE U LOVED
<3



Friday, October 5, 2012

命运

老天爷总爱作弄人
明明我们每天都在想
明天会更好
结果是
一天比一天来得差
是在考验人们的耐力吗

大家高兴地迎接黄家二公主
没想过二公主有了
小小的缺陷
三哥三嫂掉泪了
我得知时
也有点不知所措

三嫂掉泪了
是我认识中
最女中豪杰的一位了
很坚强的一个女人

如今
为了我们黄家二公主
她竟然掉泪了
我想
如有机会做个软弱的人
被保护着
有谁愿意做强者
逞强着
装腔作势地保护身边的人呢

有点不敢打电话给三嫂
我不知道如何安慰人
很抱歉
那一天赶着上学
没来得及接听您的电话
给您打气

再多的事发生
还是
对自己说
明天会更好
只要不绝望
一定有一线生机
还是那句
苦瓜吃到最后都会尝到
甜甜的

加油啊
黄家
<3


请不要误会我

请不要误会我
虽然很多时候被误会着
也劝自己别那么在意别人的想法
可是
心情还是被影响了
尤其被那种极单纯的人
从她口中说出
好像真的认定了我就是那种人
很明白不是有心伤害
单纯的人说出来的话更真实
很想开口解释
可我没那样做
很多时候
就算你说了再多
别人也不会明白你的状况


从小就很多病痛的我
说出来也不好意思
有没有听说过
穷的人,连生病的资格都没有
偏偏我
就常常都生病
政府医院对我来说
很熟悉
耳朵的状况从小就开始了
不是没看医生
而是一直都在看政府医生
每次都只给我滴药水
说没什么大碍
妈妈也找来很多偏方
那么小的我
可以做什么
我也不知道

一直拖到中五时
状况才严重起来
每晚都在
流血
流脓
而我每次都静静把血擦掉
不敢告诉家人
我知道
妈妈又会说
去clinic看啦
我明白妈妈要省钱
不是不关心我
一直拖到很严重的痛时
我才硬着头皮想妈妈说

大哥带了我去看specialist
医生检查了大摇头说
你这样几久了
你很厉害忍啊
这么严重才看医生
你家人没顾好你吗
你妈妈没尽责啊

我当场就哭了起来
我说
有啊
妈妈有尽责啊
妈妈带我去看政府医生啊
他们都给我滴药水而已
说没问题
我当时真的很难过
为什么那医生那样说我家人
你这种早就应该看specialist了
看政府医生做什么

做什么
???
很好的问题
因为免费咯
我也不想说到我那么穷
可是
事实上
真的很怕去私人医院啊
等下没钱还怎么办啊

说出来人家很难理解因为要省钱而拒绝看医生的道理
上个月我住院检查
也是想了很久很久才去的
大学后
我几乎都没有做工赚钱了
户口里没什么钱
人家会想我没顾健康
明明知道有问题不去检查
有没有想
做一个scope两三千快
住一个院多少钱
我也不想去想
我忍到有点辛苦
就开口说要看医生了
看到妈妈烦恼的脸
我明白她在烦什么
对不起

在医院
听到妈妈到处打电话问
医生讲阿妹要住院
怎样
没有钱
我就有些后悔去看医生
我笑着对妈说
不用紧啦
我有钱啦
我自己搞定


不懂从几时开始
我已经不再妈妈面前哭了
我知道
妈妈很辛苦
她很容易
胡思乱想
为了不让她担心
我只能在她面前笑
骗她说
我没事

天啊
我也不知道哪里有钱
没工作
没收入
每个月的allowance也差不多完了
还好
他把金档了借钱给我
要不然
我不懂怎样缴费

健康与金钱
当然健康比较重要
我不会不明白
只是很多时候
当你要做抉择时
尤其跟金钱有关系时
就不一样说了

对不起
请不要误会我
我会很难过

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Life



What is life all about?
LOVE 
MONEY 
FAMILY
FRIENDS
CRAZY
WILD
LAUGHTER

Everyone may have a different perception about LIFE
The most important is
WHAT DO U THINK ABOUT YR OWN LIFE
sometimes
we may feel 
TIRED
DISAPPOINTED
DOWN
HOPELESS 
HELPLESS
but
WE STILL HAVE TO MOVE ON

Some people may think they are so unlucky to be born in poor family
Some people may think why their brain are just not so GOOD compared to others
Some people may even think 
WTH is that girl look so gorgeous in every suits
how many people will feel contented with themselves and their life
I think there is no much
Even for myself

PEOPLE DO GROWN UP
and
they changed
changes are not meant to be good or bad
its depends on what do u think on the particular stuffs
After I watch this video today
I feel like crying on the spot
actually is quite normal for me to cry
because I m easily influenced by touching scene
I think of myself
compare myself with Nick Vujicic
I M MUCH MORE FORTUNATE 
at least
I born with 4 normal limbs
SO WHY DO WE STILL CARE SO MUCH ABOUT THE OUTLOOK
WHY DO WE SO EASILY GIVE UP WHEN FACING SMALL SMALL MATTER
WHY DO WE CANT STAND STRONG WHILE WE HAVE HEALTHY LIMBS
I feel ashamed out of sudden

Intrinsic value is the thing we need to have 
not the beauty outlook
I think of my family
actually is good for my sister in law to laugh like nobody business everyday even they have hard time in their business
my mum thinks that she not serious in doing her work
I have a view after this video
HOW ARE U GOING TO RESPOND TO YR LIFE
meaning that no matter how hard the situation is
WHY STOP SMILING AND LAUGHING
as least the laughter of her can keep my brother happy everyday
that's good enough
WHY MAKE YOUR LIFE SO SUFFER
if the things still remain the same after u have put in so much afford
just accept it 
TRY YR BEST
YOU CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE
MIRACLE IS ALWAYS THERE
:)

As my bi say
think positively
we would't know what gonna happen next
so appreciate what u have now
trying to be more and more positive thinking
Bi
I <3 U 







Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Sorry

Times flies
Memories still flashed by sometimes
Hmmm
These few days
All those memories are just keep appearing on my mind
Especially when I having my ENT class and in the midnight
The feelings are just so deep as tough like it  happened last night

Feel So sorry to him
Dun even dare to tell about this
Trying to cheer myself up when he not around
Thinking on how to get rid of all those stupid shitsss
It bothers me
Even in my dream
Dun even dare to sleep sometimes


But grateful that he understand my feelings well
Actually the matter now is not I cant forget of the person
Is the things he did when he with me
MEMORIES
So for me
I dun think it is good if  U have a lot of memorable moment with someonen
I feel guilty
IMMORALITY

Ytd lecturer ask us use ONE WORD to describe a friend which sit beside me
After my friend thinking for a minute
She say I m
ADVENTUROUS
DO I
Not first time getting this comment
They say me
brave love brave hate
LOL
I will do everything to surprise my love one or make them happy
Do remember
If things come to an extream
It doesn't show good
Not everyone can accept it
:)

Therefore
we have to be a little more mature
In relationship especially
But maturity always bored
And
who never be childish in a relationship
Childish bring FUN HAPPINESS AND JOY
contradicting right
So AM I
The question is
MORAL OR IMMORAL
XD




I DO LOVE U <3


灰色地带

这几天都在想
黑与白之间存不存在着灰色地带啊
那么这灰色地带是对还是错
moral or immoral

有些事明明知道不应该做
可还是改不了
这样下去
结局也会一样
等时间而已

会是怎样啊

昨晚偷偷地哭了
哭得很用力
可是没有声音
抱着枕头不让哭声传出

有些事
不需要知道
我偏偏都会不由自主地探个究竟
然后
自己自恋自艾

拿来比较
只会让自己更难受
过去了
拿回来说
有什么意义呢

这一切的一切
我都明了
可是
还是办得不好
没有难过的感觉啊