Saturday, May 21, 2011

our memories

x'mas eve



2010 new year


my birthday~~2010

funny rite??^^


snap by me due too bored^^

miss his smile a lot :(

dunno why he hate this pic so much..

his 16th's bday~~

when we are young~~lol

he love my pig face><

oops....long long time ago..

taken by him at 黑店after we went pay fong

<3

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his shirt!!!his smell!!
I m damn fucking EMO these days
Crying for him everyday again
Our memories flash back in my mind almost every second

Yesterday I went SS15 with JX &CHEW LIN
Guess what??
I m the one who suggest to go there
After so long only I dare to step in SS15 
I make myself cool and calm when I step in SS15

Both of them are quite happy
This is the second times they come to SS15
We had our dinner at Face to Face
While we taking our dinner
We start to talk about our relationship problems again
Jx said that she feel very tired in holding her relationship anymore because he dun care her as much as last time already
Chew Lin and me advise her to think twice before take any action
I dowan she feel woeful like me

Jx told me she read Kc's blog which wrote about me
She ask me a question which make me almost cry out there
[做么他懂你这么爱他又不要跟你复合??]
I answer her that he is that kind of people which wont change his mind after he make a decision
But Chew Lin doubt my answer
[If he is that kind of people,why he promised u that he wont leave u because of his mum?And now he use that as a reason to leave u??]
I really dunno what to answer Chew Lin
I feel like crying man but I tahan and continue my dinner
There is tears in my eyes and Jx saw it.......

After that we walk walk around SS15 
I became like a tour guide><
In my mind was thinking What if he suddenly appear in front of me??
My heart beats increasing again.....

Our memories....
We had lots of memories
Especially at SS15
Thats why I dun dare to step in there anymore after we break up
It remind me of how many stupid things I have done there....
How many sweet times we had there....


我的家人


从小我就觉得家人对我来说很重要
我很爱他们
还记得我小的时候爸爸是一位罗里司机,
时常都需要运送货物到不同的洲,
而却每次都是半夜运送的
虽然当时我还很小,可是我就很担心爸爸在highway会出事,所以每一次如果等不到爸爸回家我都会在床上默默地哭。。
心想:[难到爸爸出事了吗?]
也许每一晚的等待造成我现在变成“半夜鬼”了!!顶着黑眼圈示人。。。
也许我夜习惯了等待。。

当我开始懂事时,我等待的人已经不是爸爸了。。。
那时,大哥跟二哥都在外地工作

我每一天都等三哥回家。。
三哥从小就爱欺负我,我每次都跟人家说我很讨厌他
可是心里呢??我还是很关心他的
他差不多每天都会喝酒过后才回家的
我不知道原因是什么
也没有多问
只是心真的不好受。。。
大哥跟二哥是出了事才不能留在马六甲的
而三哥虽然留在家可是又好像很多烦恼的
我怎样会好受呢?

还记得有一次,我在三哥的床上等他回家等到睡着了
他回来的时候,发现我竟然睡到用充电器的wire绑着自己
简直把他吓傻了
他又不想吵醒我,就一直帮我解开
可是过后还是把我惊醒了
现在想回都觉得好笑。。

妈妈最辛苦了
她的孩子们虽然都很孝顺
可是也都很难搞
抽烟,酗酒,打架。。。。
让她心痛不已,时常看到她伤心流泪。。。。

如今,
这一切都成为历史了,
大哥跟三哥都有了自己的家庭,
为我们家加入了新成员。。
二哥最近也有新女友了。。。


我想
爸爸妈妈是时候享福了
不用再这么担心我们了
就算我们有什么事情发生
也应该自己负责了
而我最想看到的是我三个哥哥都和睦相处
不要每天不爽对方
怎样都是一家人
没得选的。。。。。。。