The ugly truth

Truth in life is always

UGLY

lol

Dun u all agree with me??

:)

Sometimes I hope that I live like there is no tomorrow

So

I can do whatever WONDER things that I want

I do no need do GIVE A DAMN to the others

I can enjoy my life to the MAX

I CAN TELL THE WORLD

YES I WANT THIS KIND OF LIFE 

SO WHAT

Recently

My heartbeats fast when I meet someone 

I wish that I could be with him all the time

I can smile happily whenever he is around

I worry about his everything

studies

health 

social network

future

and the best part is

I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE HIM HAPPY 

so long that I dint have that kind mix feelings

I even get angry and shouted at him just because I found out that he smokes

I dunno why is it so 

anyway

he seems like not the right guy for me

he is good 

he did many things for me

I should feel touch actually

but I just keep cold and calm

I dowan to light up the sparks for both of us

hmmm

sounds ridiculous?

people normally wish sparkling between the one u like

but for me

I wish to splash cold water to him or maybe I should think of standing under the rain ??

I WANT BOTH OF US TO WAKE UP

The fact cant be change e over time

FACTS ARE STILL FACTS

There is no future for both of us

Even if our relationship last long 

But will the happiness still remain?

Can u actually see the problems?

These days I get more stress and annoy 

Question marks keep popping up around

Friends around me keep on asking 

how u with him

what your status now

still dowan accept him yet

Goshhhhh

can I just pretend that I am deaf

I tried to communicate with him about the problems I m facing

I know he feels annoy too

But at the end

KO

No solution can be found

No matter how much he say

My brain will tell me

hello

are u sure 

yr parents can understand or not

how are u going to face them during outing

u can pretend he is invisible to u

THEN

I will make myself coldddddddddddddd 

No string between us

I no need crack my head for thinking how to tide up the string

I no need waste my energy when I need to cut off the string

It's very good right

what my friends thinking

I m using him 

LOL

AM I?????

sometimes I will agree 

Y izit I can do that to him

I dint repay him anything

I scolded him STUPID

He study business but do things that dint bring any benefits to him

stupid right

I emo for a very short period in the night 

I dunno what to do already

I guess I will just stop taking any action from now

For the time being

I should just start my revision for my finals

It is on next wed 

lol

I dint touch any of my notes yet

Lying on bed every night thinking some stupid questions with NO ANSWER

Damn myself

PLEASE BE GUAI GUAI WITH ME TILL THE END OF MY FINAL

I DOWAN ANY EMONESS

I DOWAN ANY PROBLEMS

I DOWAN ANY WORRIES