Tuesday, December 27, 2011

no value

I m such a bitch with zero value
Cry in my room for day and night
No meals no drink no bath
Nothing
Its like so dead
I dunno who can I refer to
I know my family knew that something is happening
My look is totally like a HANTU
I dun even dare to stand in front of my mirror 
My dai lou and father fall sick already but dai lou still concern about me
He keep on geh geh what listen what m I chatting with lano and joey
I cant tell them anything
I cant pretend I m nothing also
I just can help as much as I can in kopitiam 
Its sounds so FUNNY if I go and tell dai lou 
Hey that day I kissed with my EX and I dunno what can I do now coz I realized I m zero value
I feel myself so CHEAP 
Kor u understand my feelings a???
I cant do that right???

He apologized to me after I question him about that incidence
What it means ??
It means that he wont say or do anything if I never ask
U know what I feel?
IT IS SO SHITTY OKAY????
I m not yr girl anymore means I m nothing??no need to responsible??
I m a human and I got feelings one okay??
What am I to u??
A fish??A chick??or maybe a dog???BITCH....right???

没有猫是不吃鱼的
I wont be that sad if u never point this out
It shows I m worst than zero
NEGATIVE VALUE.......
很像我自己送上门的
how cheap m I in yr heart
how hurt m I when I think of that

真希望人的记忆可以想电脑,要删掉就删掉
we know each other for how long d??
I guess U shud noe that I have a good brain which can remember all the shittty stuffsss
I noe u hard to rmb things also
The shirt I gave you is on yr birthday not valentine present
Thats why U are lucky
I tell u what
Impossible for me to forgot that incidence and I still remember our FIRST KISS
I shall hate myself why I have such a WONDERFUL brain


Hey
It is not the first time babe
the shitty feelings shitty smell shitty thought but I still cant make myself OVER of you
the first time:I stay over at your place after break up,we were watching movie on your bed and u hugged meee,I feel warm but I found out what u wrote about me in your previous blog.........

second time:U hugged me when sleeping till morning and I ask u why,U say sleeping time mmg will hug thing one ma...oh fantastic huh,I m just a thing..oh yea...

third time :which happened few days ago,U pull me to U and we kiss together,what u say after that,没有猫是不吃鱼的,oh la la,this time I become a fish.......


how shit m I 
I BORN TO BE A BITCH
犯贱????
为了你变贱??
I m like a swing
u push me high then i fly high
u push with a little energy 
then I goes slow

oh damn my life
is going to destroy by the shitty feelings

oh damn my life
is going to stop all the stupid guys
guys only use their dick to think but not their brain


oh damn

OH DAMN
U LIAR
u said no love no sex
what I see is no sex no love
F*** u
 
WHY M I BU SE DE TO LEAVE A BIG BASTARD LIAR WITH NO BRAIN
BITCH









:'( 




 

Monday, December 26, 2011

我的天啊

我的天啊
kadawale
oh my god
Ya Allah
一打开眼睛就想他有没有出事啊
昨晚担心到四五点都睡不下
不懂他有没有安全到家,还是太迟回家在中鸟??
lano叫我打给他我又不敢
要是他正在被鸟我打给他我不是被他鸟死,就只有等的份,反正也惯了

他没事
如我想象中那样
他还是一到家就睡了
一向来都只会让人担心
要骂但没资格骂

一直躺在床上想
我们昨晚到底在干嘛呢
想不清,不明白,搞不懂
我不懂为什么他会拉我过去
我不懂做么我们会吻了起来
我更不明白我们竟然可以吻那么久
为什么我没有要推开他反而越抱越紧
为什么我会激动到哭了起来

我没想到我们分开了那么久后还有拥抱接吻的机会
觉得自己比吊着来卖的tandoori更没价值
抱了,吻了,散了,什么都没有了
一句话一句再见都没有。。。。。。。。。。。

我感觉到他在逃避啊
他并没有要什么的阿
只是。。。。。。。
我很希望他说几句话的啊
可是。。。。。。。。什么都没说阿
我也不敢开口问啊,因为我知道我什么都不是啊
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

也许他已经习惯了clubbing的生活
喝了酒抱抱吻吻他都觉得没什么大不了,很多人都这样
可是我真的接受不到啊
我的天啊!!!!!
我们是怎么啦???